She’s constantly reminding me that we aren’t together anymore, yet she sneaks around when she’s with someone else.
She’s constantly reminding me that she doesn’t want a relationship and just wants to be single…yet she plays the same emotional games that we played 3 years ago…
She’s constantly reminding me that she doesn’t want to be married anymore…keeps telling me that she’s over that part because she had to accept me moving onto someone else even though I hadn’t really moved on and we had that discussion.
But somehow her disrespecting me and hiding things from me is acceptable but me being bothered by it and being upset because of her actions is unacceptable.
Why am I of no value to the woman that chose me. Why am I disposable to the woman that promised to love me for better or for worse. Why am I nothing to the one person that made the conscious decision to keep me around forever.
Why am I not enough.
Why does this hurt so much.
Why can’t I just walk away from all of this even though I know that I deserve and need better than what she can give me.
Why am I destroying myself.
Why do I allow this to continue to happen.
Do I really love myself as much as I thought I did?
Will I ever know what self love Is? 😔
I’ve managed to destroy myself once again.
Life is great. Life is grand.